As I sit here alone in the darkness, my mind wanders to the moments we have shared together but I can’t help but feel an overwhelming sense of fear. Fear of what comes next, fear of losing you. The moments that have made me laugh, cry, and fall even deeper in love with you. You are the sunshine that brightens up my day and the moonlight that brings me peace at night. You have become such an integral part of my life that the mere thought of not having you by my side fills me with an indescribable ache.

Every morning, I wake up with a smile on my face, knowing that you are the first person I will talk to. Your voice is like music to my ears and your words are like balm to my soul. I look forward to hearing your good morning message and feeling the warmth of your love. From the moment I wake up until the time I go to bed, you are always on my mind. Every morning, I eagerly await your good morning message. Noon is never complete without your call, inviting me to share a meal with you. The way you take care of me makes me feel cherished and loved. And even when we are both busy, I always look forward to your text messages, letting me know that you miss me and that you’re thinking of me. I am always excited to go home and hear your voice, to share my day with you, and hear about yours. You have become my source of comfort, my solace.

And then there are the nights. Oh, how I cherish our conversations at night, how I look forward to hearing your voice and seeing your face. We talk until we lose track of time until it’s morning. Sometimes we even fall asleep together, and the thought of waking up without you beside me is daunting.

But even as I bask in the warmth of your love, I can’t help but feel a twinge of fear in my heart. The thought of losing you is unbearable to me, and I pray that we never have to face such a reality. The memories we have built together, the dreams we have shared, they all seem too good to be true and too precious to lose. And I wonder, do you really love me as much as I love you?

Can you handle it if I’m no longer a part of your life? Will you cry if what we have is over? I wonder if you feel the same way if the thought of losing me fills you with the same fear and pain. These thoughts bring tears to my eyes as if losing you would be the most painful thing that could ever happen to me. You have become such a big part of my life that I can’t imagine life without you. And I can never get enough of hearing you say those three little words, “I love you”.

So here I am, pouring out my heart to you, hoping that you can feel the depth of my love and the intensity of my fear. I want to spend every moment I can with you, talking and laughing and loving each other. Through the highs and lows, and no matter what the future holds, know that my love for you will always endure until eternity. My love for you is an endless well, fueling my desire to sacrifice and serve you selflessly. And I love you Darryl more than words can express.

Always and Forever,

Angge