I’m here, stunned and longing for an unknown reason. And recently, I’ve been wondering if I’m truly happy or simply pretending to be. And I get to the point where I believe my life is fine, that I have everything I need and desire, that I have a great family and friends, but then I realize that, despite having everything, there is still something lacking in my heart.…that seems not to be filled by anyone and hard to achieve. I feel like there is an excessive amount of gloom inside me and I can’t openly relinquish it. I need to completely free myself from whatever sort of sorrow I’ve been holding for such a long time. I have attempted every day to escape myself from the distress that has consistently been in me yet for reasons unknown, it never goes away. I never told my family or friends about it because I didn’t want them to think they didn’t go out of their way to make me happy… and I’m scared they wouldn’t understand or would simply dismiss my unhappiness. As a result, I found myself alone, dealing with all of these challenges on my own. I don’t have an option but to be fine.